Tired of being tired...

what more is there to say, lol... I get lots of sleep, lots of rest, and am still tired most of the time. I guess this was the big clue that something was off with my body, it happened last time too. But right now when I have so much to try and do before treatment begins, I find myself just wanting to sit on the couch and do nothing. So sometimes I do.

Feeling a little alone right now, I have lots of people who can be of support, but its tough when no one know what you are going through. Some days, or who am I kidding, everyday I just wish I could curl up in my hubbys arms and everything would be better. Only 3 more weeks till he gets to come home again... too bad we have to attend the big appointment then. At least we will know what and when, or I sure as hell hope we do!!

Ok, enough of the rambling pity party...

Day 5 of the squat challenge I am doing... 70 squats today!!

Day 1 of getting ready for battle

So I have decided that since it looks like I have at the very least 4 weeks, most likely 6-8 before anything happens, I can going to prepare my body as much as I can for this next battle. I have started back at the gym to try and bulk up some muscle, and going to try to eat as healthy as I can to get my body in the best shape it can be for the treatments that will follow.

I have also started a squat challenge with a few facebook friends to add to the gym routine. Today was 50 squats!

At the gym I did my squats, some weights, 15 minutes on the bike and 20 minutes on the treadmill. Not bad for the first day back in a few months!

I have also been thinking of what I might do to my hair this time. If you look in the past posts you can see I went with a very colorful mohawk. I really love my hair this time around so I am finding it hard to deal with the fact I will be losing my new found curls. Might just add some funky color and keep the curls as long as I can!

Going to miss my new found curls

 

 



Well thats the plan, for now... trying not to overthink things right now but its tough. Its even tougher that my main support system, my hubby, is so far away right now... just wish he could be here everynight with me...

Life sure know how to throw you curve balls

I'm not even too sure where to start, so much has happened over the past couple months I can hardly wrap my head around things.

First thing is that we are moving three provinces over since my hubby received a promotion so we were all set to move and join him and now that will take longer than we wanted. Still don't have a timeline but hopefully after my next appointment we will.

ahh yes, next appointment... this is with a hematologist? Bone marrow transplant team guy...

yep, if you know anything about the Cancer world you would have guessed by now what has happened. I have relapsed. The cancer that ever so nicely went away with my first line chemo has returned. In a new spot, only one area affected thankfully. So it looks like my oncologist had decided that a Stem Cell Transplant is the best chance of getting the cure.

I wont know the whole plan until the 29th of May when I see the new doc, so its just speculate till I see the plan...

really wish I wasn't restarting the blog for this reason

Had my scan

and will have the results in the beginning of April. I am hoping that if something were there that I would get a phone call and come see me type of thing, but who really knows! So I will wait and try not think about it too much. Don't need to get crazier than I already am!

Kids are home for 2 week spring break, that will keep me on my toes... then we leave for part 2 of our delayed vacation... excited for that one!

Trying a 2 week eating challenge of 1200 calories a day starting today. Need to kick start this weight loss!

where has the time gone?

I can't believe it's been 2 months since I blogged... really need to get back at this. Just because the cancer is gone does not mean that I am done... I wish...

Wednesday I have my first follow CT scan... im sure all will be well, but with no results for a month due to my onc on vaca then us on vaca, its going to seem like forever! I do still have a node that I can feel, gets kinda irritating... I wish it would have disappeared completely. With it being there I am always touching it to see if it has gotten bigger. Of course you have to be careful because you can make it bigger by touching it... so frustrating!!! We are sure it is just scar tissue, but life would be easier if it was not a constant reminder of what may be lurking out there again...

On a positive note, we are getting geared up for part 2 of our tropical vacation that was postponed due to me starting treatment. We leave in about 3 weeks for... somewhere warm, lol... not booked yet!

Vegas has been booked for june and we are down there for the world series of poker again... good times :)  going with friends and hopefully meeting some new ones down there!!

Ok, guess that'll do for now... want to start checking in more, especially as I try to loose the weight I gained in treatment... just hard to get motivated right now!

All news is good!

Had a great start to the new year. My last onc appt, which happened to be the first one since treatment with my main onc went very well. The first thing he did was look at me and say ' so you did 4 months of treatments?' I replied 'yes' he said ' how long have you been done now?' I reply about a month, he follows this with ' that's about 2 weeks out, you look fantastic!'  It was so nice to hear that. I guess I tolerated treatment quite well, I have color and energy, which he was very happy to see. He also said that based on how my scan looked mid cycle and how things appear now, this is most likely behind me...

BEST THING TO HEAR!!!

So now I have the next three months with no drs or scans or anything besides living my life!

In 3 months I get a CT and see him again... then every 4 months for a while, which gets further apart the longer I stay in remission :)

Just as a footnote, had a great holiday season with family this year... and now the countdown to our vacation to the Dominican!!

Today is NOT a chemo day!!!

WOW... so nice to be done. I have my days back. Today, instead of having to go to chemo, which would have been the norm, I got to have a celebration lunch. My mom and I have been going to my aunts house quite regularly on my good weeks, to visit and get out. Today we went for a celebration lunch and I had a wonderful surprise of my hubby showing up with a card and flowers to join us! It was a great way to spend part of my day.

So I figure from this day forward, I will feel better each and every day. No more toxic chemicals entering my body, only out... yeehaa! It feels fantastic!

On an energy level, im not doing to bad. I had three really busy days, and day four I was wiped. Still takes a lot out of me to be doing things, but I keep trying!

Oh, yeah, we booked our trip today!! Going to Peurto Plata for a week! So looking forward to this :)

I will try to keep up on my blog, but I find I forget, especially this time of year. CRAZINESS!!!